Monday, September 26, 2005
I was feeling empty on the train ride home today...
Like I can't sit still, like I am agitated as if I'm impatient that this boring train ride would never end.
It's the end of a working day, yet I don't feel like I have much to look forward to. Slowly, it's as if life is beginning to pale away, like faded pages in an ancient book, turning stale and unused. It's interesting why I would use that analogy, just yesterday i went out latin dancing. I just can't be content with being on my own all the time. I think I'm a social creature, I need to be surrounded by people or else I'll go insane.
How do you describe today? Just fatigue, all day long... Waiting and waiting for the day to end. Sigh...then I come home to this. It's satisfying having a well cooked dinner with parents, but now the long cherished time I have awaited for during those working hours has become this...
It's great to be idle, when you are at peace with yourself.
Tonight I am not.
Too many random thoughts run through my head, I am impatient, as if I am waiting for something massive to hit me. I think it will. Ever since they mailed me the employment contract I've been working like a robot, endlessly laboring over those assignments and research notes, satisfied only once I tick off one of the many checklist points I made myself in order to get everything organised in time.
Maybe it's not good thinking about this too much. Perhaps my busy mind will slowly rest, once fatigue takes over and rescue me away.
xiao ying @ 7:18 PM.
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Name: Xiao Ying
Year of birth: 1982
Country: Australia
Star Sign: Scorpio
Goal: To capture moments in life, and share it with those who matter
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==FAVOURITE QUOTES:==
"NOW" is a gift, that's why they call it "THE PRESENT"
Travel life has the essence of a dream.
It is something outside the normal,
yet you are in it.
It is peopled with characters you have never seen before
and in all probability will never see again.
It brings occasional homesickness, and loneliness,
and pangs of longings...
But you are like the vikings who have gone into a world of adventure,
and home is not home until you return.
But home is where the heart is.
So where is home?
Dance like no one is watching
Love like you've never been hurt
Sing like no one's listening
Live like it's heaven on earth
Chocolate flows in deep dark, sweet waves, a river to ignite the mind and alert the senses...
Unexpected events in our daily lives are like different flavors that lie waiting beneath each chocolate cover.
Just like Forrest Gump explained:
"Life is like a box of chocolate, coz you never know what you're gonna get"
