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Wednesday, November 02, 2005




Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanting to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away


I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

Break away
Break away

I woke up this morning to the sound of the radio. In my groggy state I heard this song playing in the background. How appropriate, I thought. I've been thinking more and more about Singapore these days. As the final day draws near, talk about mixed emotions! Staring at the ceiling the other night while trying to sleep, I felt a pang of fear rising from within as I realised that I will be leaving my family for the first time. That's quite a milestone I think, a bigger one than finishing uni and starting work.
Compiling past photos to take with me to Singapore was a trip down memory lane. I can't help but gingerly read those letters/cards sent to me from close friends. Sadness is replaced by gratefulness and joy when I lament on how fortunate I am have met such wonderful people. Beneath those smiling faces, you can sense genuine happiness. As with any departure, the hardest bit is always saying goodbye. I'm not sure how I will react on the day, people ask me how I will feel about saying goodbye to Neil. I haven't thought of that yet, because I guess I'm scared thinking about it.


Then yesterday, as I chatted with a friend over a yummy icecream under the shades in the lovely spring melbourne weather, I got very excited and happy at the prospect of leaving Melbourne. Think! A world full of possibilities, adventures, people to meet and the challenges to learn from! Yes, it will be good for me. Just as the lyric dictates:

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance,
make a change And break away

*sighh~~~~~~~~*

xiao ying @ 4:04 PM.

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