Saturday, April 22, 2006
Standing to watch the sunset at Sentosa Island, Singapore
As Carrie would say, when one door closes, another window opens.
Now I'm standing at a crossroad again, struggling to make my decision.
These days a million and one things run their courses through my mind. Every waking hour, when I'm not interrupted by anything or doing my daily duties, I would be thinking, thinking and thinking...
I think the point when I realized I'm in love with Singapore was when I woke up from a dream 3 months ago, feeling relieved and flustered because I dreamed I was back in Australia, and luckily I wasn't. The new friends; the immense sense of freedom; the feeling of belonging in its culture; the energy and vibrancy...I have been embraced by sunshine and warmth, isn't that what I dreamt of when I planned this adventure? Yet sometimes one requires a reality check every now and then.
Most of the times, I'm stressed. Another time I would feel an immense sense of excitement of the road ahead, possibilities and opportunities shining brightly like a well paved path of gold. Another time I'd be gripped with fear, afraid of wrong decisions, and feeling that sense of doom and misadventure hanging over me. Isn't it meant to be an unfortunate year for those born in the year of the dog? Now I'm not superstitious or anything but recently stumbling blocks have made me think twice. I'm wearier. Today I couldn't help but feel tears burning down my cheeks. Sometimes I'd feel so sad, not willing to let go. I'm crying, even now. But sometimes in life, maybe you have to let go.
The moment I dared to jump off the cliff into the fresh clear water below; that sunny afternoon when I whipped out my bank card to make a large sum payment on my airfare ticket to Thailand...something shifted, and changed inside me. Someone close to my heart once told me that the way to self-discovery is pushing yourself beyond your usual boundaries. How true.
xiao ying @ 6:59 PM.
Name: Xiao Ying
Year of birth: 1982
Star Sign: Scorpio
Goal: To capture moments in life, and share it with those who matter
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"NOW" is a gift, that's why they call it "THE PRESENT"
Travel life has the essence of a dream.
It is something outside the normal,
yet you are in it.
It is peopled with characters you have never seen before
and in all probability will never see again.
It brings occasional homesickness, and loneliness,
and pangs of longings...
But you are like the vikings who have gone into a world of adventure,
and home is not home until you return.
But home is where the heart is.
So where is home?
Dance like no one is watching
Love like you've never been hurt
Sing like no one's listening
Live like it's heaven on earth
Chocolate flows in deep dark, sweet waves, a river to ignite the mind and alert the senses...
Unexpected events in our daily lives are like different flavors that lie waiting beneath each chocolate cover.
Just like Forrest Gump explained:
"Life is like a box of chocolate, coz you never know what you're gonna get"