Wednesday, May 24, 2006
It happened to me out of the blue one day. Looking at Z from the side, I was filled with a sudden rush of affection, and muttered the word 'boyfriend' in my mind so naturally that I surprised myself. I think that’s the moment I came to accept that word in my vocabulary. Once I believed in fairytales, I still wish I do in a sense. Over a couple of drinks I chatted to a colleague about finding 'the one' in your life. It's funny how I'm starting to 'mature' like the rest of my older counterparts and start to develop this slight cynicism about finding that perfect someone, who fulfills your every need. I mean, how does he come to be perfect when you're not perfect yourself? Plus change is inevitable, the 'perfect he' today may not be the 'perfect he' tomorrow. What if 'the one' is simply the right person who we meet at the right time, who fulfill 'most' of the criteria in the so called checklist?
xiao ying @ 3:13 AM.
L-R: Jeremy, Ling, Chloe, me, Zhi Yang
L-R: Bi Yun, Chen Mei, Me, Yan Yan
Some random rare days, you have the time of your life.
You don't expect it to happen, then POW, it hits you, and you're surprised, pleasantly blissful and thankful for it.
Then your mood can dip just like that, when things don't go the way you expect, or somebody disappoints you in someway, or when you lack that certain connection with someone and everything gets all too fake that you begin to question your quality of friendships these days because of the superficiality of it all.
Yet, its the moments when you can't stop laughing, sing loud and crappy and don't care about being judged, blow hundreds of bubble balloons, shrieking and popping them like you did as a kid, that you realize hey, this heart warming feeling, wow, there is love and genuine friendship in this world. They seem to know when to relax and have fun. They are uninhibited, they care, they don't judge. They're my friends and I suddenly hits me how much I will miss them when I leave Singapore.
Moments like these you have faith again. I cherish these moments.
xiao ying @ 2:45 AM.
Friday, May 12, 2006
Life isn't about how many breaths you take,
but the moments that take your breath away.
I have stopped sleeping inside.
A house is too small,
I want the whole world,
and the stars, too.
(Sue Hubbell, 1986)
Above is MeiLiXueShang in Deqen (near the border of Tibet and China) -a sight I will surely behold in a few weeks' time.
xiao ying @ 1:39 AM.
Monday, May 01, 2006
With fellow optometry colleagues
At our annual dinner and dance ball...
-improved cooking skills
-discovered that grocery shopping, washing dishes, cleaning toilets and doing laundry can actually be relaxing (call me weird)
-Starting to understand why Joyce loves grocery shopping, perhaps linked to the female psychology of guilt-free cash spending ?
-too much socialising with friends, not enough sleep
-no time to think, always go go go
-starting to dislike the monotonous working lifestyle of being a refraction monkey
-enjoying free salsa dancing, live music, meeting cute singaporean boys every friday night at Union Square
-becoming obsessed with latino jam classes at california fitness
-photography sessions at the zoo, beach, everywhere.
-gotta stop shopping on impulse, accumulating lots of things and wondering how I'm able to bring them back to Austalia
-nearly got conned into modelling and people claiming that I'd won holidays overseas
-more travelling forecasted: whip into a shopping frenzy, swim in the ocean, camp under the stars, shower under waterfalls, climb the peak, kayak around Harlom bay, touch the sky, appreciate colorful culture, make lifelong friends...
-learning (slowly) to think and decide on my own
xiao ying @ 5:16 PM.